I don't believe in coincidences

It's been a while since I've spoken of my "coincidences". It's been a while since they have really presented themselves to me but they seem to be popping up again. A couple of weeks ago I was on the train and a woman got on that I was immediately drawn to. I thought she appeared to be Peruvian. At least Native American of some sort, but specifically I imagined her to have Incan ancestors. I kept staring at her because I was so drawn to her image. I really wanted to draw her portrait. I probably made her a bit uncomfortable unfortunately. I was meanwhile doing a crossword, which I often do in the mornings on my way to work. Not long after she got on and I had been thinking about her heritage, one of the answers on my crossword was, "Peru". A few minutes later the word was, "Incan"...

Last night my roommates and I were looking up tabby cats to see if my cat Olive might be one. We discovered that this type of cat has an "M" on its forehead and Olive fit the bill. I started watching Star Trek again after they left and the next episode I watched contained a species with an "M" emblazoned on their foreheads...

Today I was at work thinking about the new chalkboard sign I would draw. Thanksgiving is coming up and I'm not a huge fan of themes so I didn't want to do anything generic. Native Americans always come to mind when thinking about Thanksgiving, but it feels so false, because we always ignore the fact that we massacred them and took over the country. I wanted to do something to honor the Native Americans and so I began looking up images at work. I even found out that November is Native American Heritage month (Too bad nobody knows or does anything about it). Just now I was working on mocking up the chalkboard on my computer while watching Star Trek. A new episode started and they began talking about a colony begun by Native Americans. Then they began talking about how they had been forcibly removed from their homeland when white men started moving into the country. In the show, they were going to have to remove the Native Americans yet again...

I don't know what these "coincidences" mean if anything at all, but I will continue to document them.

My Current Musical Local

I feel so odd right now. Yesterday, I was nursing a very nauseated stomach with "Less Drowsy" Dramamine...I can't imagine what the normal Dramamine must be like because this version certainly has its affects on me. I took one yesterday afternoon and by the time I got home and had dinner, I started becoming nausesated yet again. I took another Dramamine and promptly passed out at 9pm. This morning I woke up around 8:30 still a bit out of it but knowing I needed to get up and start my day anyway. I had my cup of coffee and my St. John's Wort (the combination of which always has me a bit elated and euphoric in the mornings) and now I feel awake and asleep all at the same time. It's as though my consciousness were experiencing the world through polarized lenses or window blinds. There is the undulation of clarity and complete exhaustion that continues to course through me each second. It's as though there is a wave flowing through me from head to toe with complete alertness at its peak and overwhelming drowsiness with each trough. My body is having a difficult time coping and I feel like sleeping to shake it off. That's what my body does when it needs to shake something. I can't though. I need to work.

I'm excited for the Dramamine to finally wear off tonight. This is going to be an interesting day.

Science has shown us that when we think we have found the final piece to the puzzle, that in fact, it is not. We thought we were the center of the universe for years and then realized that we actually revolved around the sun, which we though was the center of our galaxy. But again that proved not to be true. Not only is that not true, but our galaxy is not even the center of the universe. Space continues to grow as we continue to learn more bout what is out there. There is currently believed to be an end somewhere to our universe, but what is outside of that? It is also widely accepted that our universe began at a certain time in point, but what happened before that? Atoms were thought the smallest particle and then we discovered electrons and protons and those were even shown to not be the smallest particles. And what are the particles that electrons are made of? After we die, the universe will continue for billions and trillions of years, but then what? Time and space proves to be infinite in either direction the more we explore. Once we have reached a perceived dead end, it isn't long befor we discover a hole.

A creator must exist apart from its creation both in terms of time and space. Leonardo could not paint the Mona Lisa before he existed, nor could he create her if he were also a part of the painting itself. The creator must exist separately from the creation. If everything is infinite in either direction for both time and space, then you can never reach a point when you are completely outside of the existence (creation). Therefore, how can there possibly be a creator?

I think one of the most important things I was required to do in school happened in 6th grade reading. Every week we were to compile a list of only 5 words that we had read during the week that we didn't know the meaning to and look them up in the dictionary. I notice that not only do I do that with words, but with everything I don't understand or am unsure of. The internet makes that easy. Each day is a learning experience.

I am currently watching an outrageous but very well thought out series on aliens and their involvement in the history of the earth, called "Ancient Aliens". There are 2 seasons and 15 episodes total. Sometimes they make outrageous accusations and claims without support but other times they find some very interesting connections and explanations. Anyway, one woman ( I forget her name and what she did. She was possibly an astrophysicist.) had the following to say and I liked it:

"Each step that we take makes us a little bit less special. We used to think that we were the center of the universe as humans and then we realized, 'Oh alright, well that's not true. But, we're the center of the galaxy? Well, alright, so we're like 2/3rds of the way out on a spiral arm. Well, at least our sun, you know with this... No, the sun is actually in the middle and the earth goes around it so earth isn't even the center of that system.' [Astrophysics is] a very humbling science."

I'm no longer religious and no longer care, but there is still a part of me that feels a connection to it, and it's negative. I don't feel like I was actually taught to understand the verses I was reading, just how to recite them.

If I'm going to be subjected to something so intolerant, I'd at least like to know the truth.